Happy New Year! Bring in 2010 :)

So I decided to write a blog on new years because I have nothing else better to do at this time. You see, Last year, I was doing the exact same thing...so why didn't I change it up? Many obstacles got in the way one of them being none of my friends are doing anything, for the ones that are didn't invite me. Second, I worked on new years eve and new years day, I think it's my punishment for taking off boxing day and the 2 days after that for going to Chicago. Speaking of Chicago, I will post a separate blog on that adventure. So today, I worked and went out to dinner with my family and after that I stayed home and watched Rockin' Eve. I do feel depressed staying home when everyone is out but I also think of it positively because I wouldn't want to stay out in a cold and cluster phobic environment either. So whats my problem? haha I sometime complain too much, even ask my manager at work :P!! One of my new year resolution is promising myself that next year I will not do the same thing on new years eve because that would be 3 years consecutively doing the same thing, I kind of need a life!

For some reason, I am addicted to Christmas music right now, especially Taylor Swift's Christmas CD....my favourite song is "Christmas must be something more" that song has been on repeat for hours now. Christmas is over but it never hurts to keep the spirit up. :)

p.s. TEAM CANADA!!!

But maybe it's not worth it

Trying my best to do my job,
But maybe it's not worth it.
Constantly struggling to do what you asked,
But maybe it's not worth it.
Waking up early in the morning just for you,
But maybe it's not worth it.
Staying late at night to do what you asked,
But maybe it's not worth it.
Taking in all the punches that you all give me,
But maybe it's not worth it.
Tears drippin' down my face from the words that you say,
But maybe it's not worth it.
Holdin' on to this so tightly that it's heartbreaking to let-go,
But maybe it's not worth it.

If it's not worth it, then why am I trying?
It is because I never give up.
The only thing that is worth it is making it last while it can.
Enjoy the present, worry about the future later because life is too short to let other step all over you.

if I don't work...

Working is taking over my life at this moment. This is because I work at a retail store and it's the holiday season where it's the most craziest time of the year. Closing time is 10pm but our store rule is we have to stay 2 hours later to fold and clean the store but last night, I didn't get out till 2:30AM!!! Crazy. I am lucky I know how to drive and have a car because I even told my manager that without my driver's license there is no way I would be able to work that late. My parents won't stay up till 2am waiting for me. "if I don't work" has been my excuse for the past few days...well i wouldn't say excuse cuz I am not trying to get out of it, it is just that work comes up so unexpectantly that I cannot make plans or else I'd feel bad for canceling them. I already canceled on one of my friend today because my agent gave me a job two days ago. For instance, I am working everyday of the week next week so plans with friends will definitely not work out till friday when I get off work at 2pm. It is crazy but when the paycheck comes along, it should be worth it. When I am not working at my retail store, I probably will be working on a TV show or movie...so much to do in so little time. By the look of this, my goal for this holiday fails because I do not have time to do what I was planning to like learning guitar and reading. But, one thing that I have time for and try my best to make time for is DANCE! For some reason, I have been so obsessed with dancing. I think it's the feeling of soreness and stress-relief after a routine. I have been taking dance class every week and tomorrow, I will be attending a Tre-Armstrong "Give back" workshop which I am so pumped for. Can't wait to try different styles of dances and not to forget, learning from SYTYCDC dancers will always be amazing.



Registration for iDance is coming along, I finally have enough money to register! I just need my money to transfer to my credit card which shouldn't take too long. Two days ago, I went to meet SYTYCDC dancers from Season 2 and they are all amazing people. You can guess, my favourite is Tara-Jean but I love them all. Speaking of her, she will be teaching contemporary at iDance...so pumped. I don't know why all of a sudden dance has gotten to me, is it because there is more opportunity for jobs on shows in the future? That's a possibility because that is what got me into this because I have no other talents. Flexibility is my biggest struggle because my bones are already fully grown and to be able to do a split now will take effort and time. ahhh, maybe one day I will give in to stretching every single day.

I found out today that there is a Pussycat Dolls workout DVD!! I am totally getting that along with Julianne Hough cardio/Salsa workout. I am also looking for SYTYCD Workout DVD but I've never seen it in store, maybe it is only online. I'll see how these will workout because I get lazy after a while :P!

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow

Holiday begins for me!! I am one of a few that's lucky to finish school this early. Yesterday was my last day but I still had some missing assignments so it wasn't over till midnight hahah, procrastinating once again. I am setting a goal for next semester that I will not procrastinate but again, I do this every year but I really need to get into the habit of getting my work done before hand if I want to get into Ryerson. I am still confused about next year about many things. One of them being if I should transfer to Ryerson (if I get accepted) and two, living at home? or moving out? There is a lot to think about once you are an independent individual and decisions are not always easy. I tried not to think about it much but it is impossible because I need to plan and save up for everything I need next year. You might be wondering why I am debating about Ryerson when it is my dream school to get into. Well, University of Guelph-Humber is a University/College...duh!! so after second year, I will receive a diploma and after the fourth year I will receive a BA...so I get the best of both world! If I get accepted to Ryerson, I want to transfer but that means I won't get a diploma, which I want to get. Maybe I should stay at Guelph-Humber and get my diploma then transfer? I will be in school for 6 years...which sucks but it will eventually pay off. Moving out is a big issue because I need the money and roommate. I am not a very responsible person, I can't cook and never done laundry before. I am a baby at heart, haha so it will be a big change and I am sort of excited but still want to live at home? Argg decisions decisions...

Anyways, now that my holiday started, there are a lot of stuff I planned to do. To name a few, I will be attending lots of dance classes (prepare for iDance and upgrading myself), read a few books (because I need to expand my vocabularies, hahah), write my Ryerson essays, work (I work at retail, so i will be getting a lot of shifts), go on photoshoots with Tammy and learn how to play Guitar! Lots to do, but im pumped for it!!

My family and I are going to Chicago this holiday, so excited for that too!!!

Love the holiday season <3

When's my turn?

Let's start off this blog by celebrating that "Mass Communication" class is OVER....which means all the bloggings from now on is what i WANT to write about and not what I HAVE to write about because for the past blogs, they were assigned topics and we have to elaborate and find research. That was worth 50% of my mark but now that I got the heavy load off my shoulder, I am happy to be able to write about whatever in life now.

I will write about "Life" today and how unexpected life can be. I believe it is planned out by God and all we have to do is work on it. I was at Much Music today with a friend who is in the running for MuchMusic's next VJ but unfortunately she came in second, which is still amazing considering it was out of 4000 people across Canada fighting for this job. The experience and opportunity is priceless and not everyone gets a chance to experience it. I am usually a really boring person who doesn't care too much about anything but it hit me hard today how people's life changed and how I want mine to change as well. Today, I witness someone's dream and goal in life come true, and i contemplate about when is that going to be me? Not that I have the potential to become a VJ because it is difficult but I am talking about when is my goal and dream going to come true? Will I ever be successful? or just live my life by watching others succeed and do nothing about my own life? Witnessing this can be heartbreaking for me but I am proud for that person because obviously hard work pays off and she was meant to have it. Some people are just luckier then others right? and that's how life is, and that's how I have to deal with it. I always wish that was ME. Not trying to sound conceited or anything, it's just how life is planned out. Who doesn't want to be successful and achieve their goal? Maybe waiting will pay off sometimes and I'll let you know when that will happen. Going back to reality, I have plans to achieve many things but time is running out because I haven't settle exactly on what I want to be and want I want to do in the future. Most people will say I have a lot of time and I'm young....I don't believe that, i'm 18...which is a scary thought because I am officially an ADULT...I need to make decision in life. The longer I wait, the older I get... so let's ACT NOW!! Main focus now is successfully finish school, upgrade myself with as much talent as I can handle so chances and opportunities can come my way.....hopefully!

P.S. I am so proud of you Alli!! You did what you had to do and continue to chase your dream because you got a lot in you :)